4.15.2008

...and then there were tears

as much as i would like to say that title was for dramatic effect, sadly, it wasn't.

sunday marked another milestone in the life of one young callia frances.

she moved, without fuss or fight, from her crib to a new "big girl" bed. after throwing everything she could find into the bed, she promptly settled in much to our amazement. we were certain the process would take at least a week packed with raised voices, tears and many time outs but we were completely wrong. she loves it and tries to climb in it every chance she gets.

it really magnified the fact that our "baby" girl was quickly growing into a "little" girl. i felt sad to the point of tears while overwhelming proud at the same time. such mixed emotions constantly tear my heart out, rip it apart, then put it back in my chest with a severe ache. i guess it's good that it's a muscle because with each rip it repairs itself and rebuilds even bigger and strong than before.

i've said it in the past and it still makes me want to kick my own ass but the tired cliche is so right-- they grow up way too fast. if you don't stop to recognize and enjoy the now, it'll pass you in the blink of an eye. it's so incredibly difficult but i love the way she makes me set aside what i think is life to see what life really is.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sniff....sniff...
You put it into words like I couldn't . Sunday was really hard day for me too. I think I cried a few times that day and looking at that picture now makes me want to cry all over again. It's so bittersweet. I miss our baby so much while at the same time I am so proud of the little girl that crawled right in that "big girl bed, " and went to sleep with no fuss.

What a crazy job this parenting thing is....

Martin said...

Too sweet....

Jason Roth said...

Congratulations. We love the fact that Zane now sleeps in a "big boy bed." It's Disney Cars theme and he loves it. Now if we can move his bed out of the corner of our bedroom and into his own, we'd be in great shape. We have to wait another few weeks as construction behind our house is very loud in the morning.

Joeprah said...

Our third was easily our most difficult. Our first two girls loved the big girl bed, it always helps making it special.